Wednesday, December 26, 2012

Looking Forward, Looking back

EricEngstromBlueHighways

Looking Forward, Looking Back

Happy Holidays to everyone! Today is December 26th, 2012.   
It is my twelfth day after completion of two and a half weeks of radiation treatments at the Marin Cancer Center, eight days after my first 5+ hour infusion session of chemotherapy drugs, and a  after an injection of Neulasta. It’s an expensive  drug to help build my white cell count, reduce nausea, and fight the cancer affecting my body.
I’ve had great support from my close friends during this very stressful time – visiting, coaching me, bringing me to and from treatments, and generally providing much needed support.  Gillian Hayward, a close friend and cancer survivor, has been a wonderful “coach” for me during the process.
My daughter Kate arrived a week+ Tuesday evening after my “Chemo day” and her counsel and love is really keeping me going.  I’m having a hard time keeping up with occupational and physical therapy, eating the food put before me, and dealing with increased pain levels since the Chemo, all considered normal side effects. I check in weekly at the Marin Cancer Center with Dr. Gullion and for cancer counseling.  My next Chemo session is January 8th, with another session
Last week I visited Dr. Chea, my infectious disease specialist, to determine the next steps in my treatment. He told me that I look great – much better than he thought I would. I’m hoping that we can modify the infusion schedule and dosage for the antibiotics.  I’ve been on about five hours of drip treatment a day; two one-hour and three half-hour intravenous sessions are the current “mix”. 
At the end of last week he worked with work with my surgeon, Dr. Lee, to develop a schedule of IV treatments I can receive by infusion twice a day twice daily, and taking the other antibiotic by mouth three times a day.  We’ve accomplished the treatment modifications so I can stabilize my treatments and plan to go home in early January.
I'm finally feeling well enough to see fiends and communicate with them and see them occasionally.  My goal for the New Year is to move forward positively, to learn to live and work productively making art, enjoying my life and contributing my talents and presence again.